<Η ζωη μου στο λονδινο

 Getting ignored by Joe. I dont understand why he is acting like he is better than me. I feel so hurt by him. I feel like he is stealing something from me. I want to get my energy back. I want to get my self worth back. There are so many men out there who want to date me and give me love annd respect, but Im trying to get it from Joe, who I dont even like. I dont like his cowardice and I dont like the way he treats me. I feel very ugly when Im around him and I feel like he is competing with me. One of the reasons I liked him in the beginning was because I had the feeling like he wasn't competing with me because usually very smart people are secure withtin their intelligence. But the one I got to know him the more I realised he is very insecure about his intelligence. Also very attached to his self image. With all the positives and negatives it comes with it.  I dont know why I feel the need to write this. My ego doesnt want to admit that I've been hurt by this 1.5/10 guy. Or m...

 I deserve to exist, I deserve to have someone by my side who loves me and supports me, I deserve to be seen, I deserve to exist as a hairy woman with stawberry legs. I deserve to be loved as brunette woman with a muffin top and cellulite. I deserve to be present. I deserve to EXIST in this world. 

 I want you to remeber this day. Feeling pressure by your manager caused you to dicsrupt the fiber fo your thoughts and flow, causing you to cry relentlessly, ruin relationships and make tradin mistakes that cost £000;s . It is imperative that you maintain the safe bubble of your being. Imagine a safe space and you are surrounded by it. You are protected. It's unpenetable. The only way for this to be penetrated is if you pull the lever. Remember your struggles and hurddles and protect your peace. I have learnt to claim this right. I am not afraid to protect myself. 

 Σκεψεις που μου μπλοκαρουν τη ροη του διαβασματος: (Disclaimer: Οι σκεψεις αυτες δε μου ανηκουν απαραιτητα, ειναι σκεψεις που ο εγκεφαλος μου εκλαμβανεται και παρατηρει. Οι σκεψεις αυτες ειτε προερχομαι απο περιβαλοντοκια αιτια ειτε απο εσωτερικα παλια τραυματα. Ισως ειναι καταλλειπα σκεψεων των προγονων μου τα οποια μεταδοθηκαν μεσω dna.