Getting ignored by Joe.

I dont understand why he is acting like he is better than me. I feel so hurt by him. I feel like he is stealing something from me. I want to get my energy back. I want to get my self worth back. There are so many men out there who want to date me and give me love annd respect, but Im trying to get it from Joe, who I dont even like. I dont like his cowardice and I dont like the way he treats me. I feel very ugly when Im around him and I feel like he is competing with me. One of the reasons I liked him in the beginning was because I had the feeling like he wasn't competing with me because usually very smart people are secure withtin their intelligence. But the one I got to know him the more I realised he is very insecure about his intelligence. Also very attached to his self image. With all the positives and negatives it comes with it. 

I dont know why I feel the need to write this. My ego doesnt want to admit that I've been hurt by this 1.5/10 guy. Or maybe he wanted to take revenge for all the women that would reject him. 

I dont know what I saw in him really. Was it the intelligence? Or probably the fact that he was different. 

It makes me so angry when he ignoes me like that. I want to punch his face. Then I'll feel guilty and apologise. 

I feel like his behavior is not representing me and he has deep rooted hatred towards women. 

I cannot help him because Im not employed by him, therefore there is nothing to gain.